tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-125812472024-03-13T06:03:15.403-04:00Masked MomWisdom can sneak up on you when you least expect it. If you're not paying attention and catch it out of the corner of your eye, you might think it's a spider and squish it flat...Masked Momhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08197019009052401812noreply@blogger.comBlogger815125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12581247.post-64470284267032743272016-04-30T17:27:00.004-04:002016-05-01T03:07:04.027-04:00Why Settle for a Vowel When You Can Buy the Whole Book?<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="font-size: large;">"If you want to be a writer, you must do two things above all: read a lot and write a lot.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">There's no way around these two things that I'm aware of, no shortcut."</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">~<b>~Stephen King, <i><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Writing-Memoir-Craft-Stephen-King/dp/1439193630/ref=tmm_hrd_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&qid=1462045779&sr=8-1" target="_blank">On Writing: A Memoir of the Craft</a></i></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Long before I read King's words, I had embraced his philosophy. I had, in fact, embraced it in a way that may have occasionally appeared compulsive to the people around me. Those compulsions are more pronounced now than ever.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Here's the bookshelf above my writing desk. There is another row of books just as long on the connecting wall, but sunlight prohibited me from getting a shot of those.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">For years, my book obsession had to take a backseat--financially and often time-wise--to raising four children. Now, not only do I have a bit more disposable income, but I have discovered I can buy used books on the internet. This is fabulous but also horrible because I can buy many more than I can actually find the time to read. Books that came in the mail today:</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">I have essentially set up my house so that I am never more than ten feet from a book at any time. And for those times when I leave the house, I stuff my backpack with both reading and writing materials lest I ever be caught somewhere without words to play with. The current contents of my backpack (arrayed on my lap desk which is where I write most often while at home):</span></div>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">L-r, top: my current journal, a packet on trauma-informed care for work that I have been trying to finish reading for weeks, two tablets--you know, the vintage kind of tablet, made of paper--where I work on rough drafts; bottom: current issue of Poets & Writers, book of short stories, my previous journal, in case I need to double check whether I've written something down already.</td></tr>
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<span style="font-size: large;">I used to jokingly call myself an addict, but these days I favor the label "zealot"--this shift in preference may or may not be related* to the fact that I desperately needed a "Z" word to round out the A-Z Challenge today.</span></div>
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<b>*</b>Hint: it is totally related.Masked Momhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08197019009052401812noreply@blogger.com29tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12581247.post-64904091517035580222016-04-29T11:03:00.000-04:002016-04-29T11:03:00.524-04:00Ways I Am Not a Grown-Up, The Twenty-Second In a Potentially Infinite Series<span style="font-size: large;">This still happens to me way too often: </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">During our conversation, Hubby mentioned that he finds it baffling that several otherwise intelligent people he knows are Trump supporters. It may be the case that Trump has many intelligent supporters, but it is also true that I have yet to hear a remotely intelligent reason for supporting Trump. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I have struggled mightily to try to see Trump through the eyes of his supporters, but have so far been unable to do so. Many applaud his willingness to tell it like he sees it, but I find the way he sees it so alarming that I can't be swayed by his forthrightness. Others seem to swallow whole his promise to "make America great again" despite the fact that there he spends significantly more time talking about how awful America is (often in inaccurate ways) than explaining specifically how intends to improve it. (Sorry, Donald and Donald supporters, it's going to take more than repeating how great YOU are to convince me that you have any idea how to make anything else great.)</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">More to the point, Trump is completely without any life experience or demonstrable skill that will be required in the position he is campaigning for. There are people who point to Trump's experience in business as a selling point, but our nation is <i>not</i> a business nor should it be run like one. Even if you are of the belief that it should be run like a business, Donald, with his multiple bankruptcies and numerous questionable business practices, hardly sounds like a good candidate for the position of CEO of the USA.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">To be honest, though, Donald's qualifications or lack thereof, are really not my main concern. I really try to cling to my faith that the system of checks and balances built into our way of government will stop Trump from being able to do too much damage from his seat in the Oval Office if he is somehow able to win the general election.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">What does concern me are Trump's supporters, who will have spent more than a year listening to Trump rant in his xenophobic, racist, violence-inciting way. In so doing, Trump is using a position of power to encourage and validate some very dangerous and regressive ideas. And that encouragement and validation will be exponentially more powerful if Trump is actually elected. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Even if Trump suddenly veers from his platform of hate and bullying, as his own camp is now claiming he plans to do, it may be more difficult to get that malevolent genie back into the bottle than we anticipate. Ultimately, a vote for Trump* is a vote to reinforce these toxic attitudes that already exist in our society. Normalizing and even celebrating exclusion and physical attacks of people who think, look, act, worship or speak differently than we do may well lead to increased discrimination and violence across the country. I utterly fail to see what will be so great about that.</span><br />
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<b>*</b>And as previously suggested, uncast votes may well be votes for Trump.Masked Momhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08197019009052401812noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12581247.post-92018669716498359822016-04-27T12:30:00.000-04:002016-04-27T12:30:00.791-04:00Rain, Rain Go Away<span style="font-size: large;">The other day, I noticed a 14-inch snake-like strip of rubber in my driveway. It's been there since late January and I have noticed it several times before, always when I am in a rush on my way to or from somewhere, which at least partly explains why I haven't picked it up.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">It's a strip off my driver's side windshield wiper blade. It peeled away a few days prior to ending up in the driveway. It spent the interim period wedged in an awkward way under the bug deflector on the hood of my van. I have no idea exactly when or how it fell off, but fall it did and there it has been ever since.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Spotting that strip again reminded me of how long I went with a compromised wiper blade. I knew that it needed replaced and am perfectly capable of replacing it on my own, but the only time I ever thought about it needing replaced was when it was actively raining and it was easy enough to convince myself to wait to buy the replacement until it was sunny again. "I'll remember to grab one the next time I'm in Kmart," I'd lie to myself.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Anyway, the breaking point came one day during a deluge about a month ago, when I was nearly blinded while out doing errands. I was lecturing myself about how ridiculous and unsafe it was that I had not replaced the wiper blade already. I was weighing whether to go to AutoZone or Kmart. Kmart might be cheaper, but their auto parts section is often poorly stocked. <a href="http://maskedmom.blogspot.com/2007/11/best-defense.html" target="_blank">AutoZone</a> has a history of irritating me because the staff there apparently finds it novel that a woman knows how to buy and install a headlight bulb or windshield wiper blade. Six of one, half a dozen of the other, right? </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">While doing all this deliberating, I pulled into the teeny (three store) strip mall where Dollar General is since there were items I was absolutely sure I needed there. As I was sitting there, still berating myself about not getting blades sooner and nagging myself to make sure I did it this very day, I realized that there is a Carquest auto parts store right there.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">This store has been in town for years, but used to be just off of Main Street. I had never gone into it in either location and just kind of don't see it at all. I am a creature of habit and also, still, shy at times about going into a new place--even though I am chronologically, allegedly a grown up. This shyness was exacerbated by the fact that this is not only a new place, but a new place where, by virtue of my gender, I might call extra attention to myself. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">But still, the store was right there and I desperately needed a windshield wiper blade. </span><span style="font-size: large;">Going into this store, unfamiliar though it was, would save me an additional stop, not to mention a long, wet walk across the parking lot of either AutoZone or Kmart. It was absurd that I was even considering not going in.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">When it comes to politics, as I've mentioned before, I've long been a preach to the choir kind of girl--avoiding the topic completely unless I am fairly certain I'm among people who share my views or who are contractually obligated by law or genetics to tolerate me. It is a policy I've adhered to almost religiously for most of my adult life and it's one that has served me well.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">It's been a lot harder, though, during this Presidential election cycle, when everyone around me--online and in the real world--seems determined to offer their opinions and to (sometimes aggressively) solicit mine.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">One of the more popular opinions I've heard is that none of the options for President are at all appealing. I've been hearing this since the first candidates began declaring their campaigns--hearing it as the field of potential candidates narrowed from 25 or 30 down to the five or so that are (more or less) in the race today. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">It seemed to capture not only a lack of enthusiasm among the electorate, but an actual distaste for most (or all) of the Presidential options. I know that the distaste--disdain even--is very real for many of the people I actually talk to on a daily basis. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">One friend, a registered Democrat, who is politically active and can usually be counted on to vote, sat out the NY primary last week because she doesn't like either Bernie or Hillary. She has threatened on several occasions to sit out the general election as well--or to use her vote to write-in another candidate, perhaps her husband.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">A couple other friends--and some more <a href="http://www.huffingtonpost.com/entry/susan-sarandon-hillary-clinton_us_56fa784ee4b014d3fe2410e6" target="_blank">well-known folks</a>--have hinted that if their chosen candidate is not the nominee, they too will sit out rather than vote for their party's alternative candidate.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">I understand this stance, I really do. There is no such thing as a perfect candidate and many--maybe most--Presidential elections seem to come down to a choice not of whom we like but of whom we dislike the least. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">The problem, though, with disengagement, with sitting out in protest, with writing in a candidate is that this time around is that it is wasting your vote. And in this election, perhaps more so than in any election in my memory, voting seems a vital way to avoid a potentially dire outcome. Because, let's face it, as in</span><span style="font-size: large;"> the potato chip meme above, some of the choices are much, much more palatable than others. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">This Presidential campaign season has taught me that not all "bad" choices are created equal. I'm hoping there's time between now and November for others to realize that as well.</span></div>
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*I'm usually very diligent about crediting artists, writers, etc. when I use their work, but I was unable to track this meme to its origins. Apologies to whoever created it--and if you are the creator & happen to find it here, please comment or email me and I will be sure to update this post.</div>
Masked Momhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08197019009052401812noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12581247.post-63396859195184869432016-04-25T11:30:00.000-04:002016-04-25T11:30:37.540-04:00Masked Mom's Media Monday: The Undertaking: Life Studies from the Dismal Trade by Thomas Lynch<div>
<span style="font-size: large;">During the ten years I spent working at the flower shop, I spent quite a bit of time in and out of local funeral homes. Given our delivery schedules, I often had no contact at all with funeral home staff--I knew where to find the hidden keys and where to leave all the arrangements I had come to deliver. At first, I was ill at ease in the presence of the deceased, laid out in the often open casket, but it became such a commonplace part of my life at a certain point that I rarely gave it much thought after the first year or so.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">When I did run into funeral home directors or staff, we were always polite and subdued except when we weren't. One funeral home director in particular had quite a sense of humor and would hide around corners or behind doors to jump out and startle me. A dicey proposition given that I startle ridiculously easy and was often carrying a hundred or more dollars worth of flowers--fortunately, I never flung any flowers in my frightened state and the director was always so boyishly pleased with himself, I couldn't help but laugh. Sometimes when Cranky Boss Lady or I ran into him at the grocery store or elsewhere around town and it had been a week or two since the last funeral, he would lean in and whisper, "Business has been really dead lately." </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">So I wasn't completely surprised to find that Thomas Lynch, undertaker and author of <i><a href="http://www.amazon.com/The-Undertaking-Studies-Dismal-Trade/dp/0393334872/ref=cm_cr_arp_d_product_top?ie=UTF8" target="_blank">The Undertaking: Life Studies from the Dismal Trade</a></i>, had a sense of humor. I no longer remember how I came to read the book, which is a collection of essays, but I remember that once I started reading, I had a hard time putting it down. I know that, though it has been perhaps ten years since I read it, I've never forgotten it.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Lynch is a poet and author who also happens to be an undertaker. He writes with wit and wisdom about a subject that so many of us are afraid to really consider. With death as a topic, you might expect a heavy or even depressing book, but t</span><span style="font-size: large;">he essays in this collection are beautifully crafted ruminations on death that are somehow full of life.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><br />
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Masked Momhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08197019009052401812noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12581247.post-77510290874439182662016-04-23T12:45:00.000-04:002016-04-23T12:45:03.822-04:00The Gifts That Keep On Giving<span style="font-size: large;">The summer I turned nine, we moved into a house much closer to my mother's large extended family than I could remember ever living before. My mother was one of eleven children so we suddenly found ourselves spending lots of time with aunts, uncles and cousins who had very nearly been strangers up to that point. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">That first summer, we had a house-warming party, hosting at least thirty or forty people. My Aunt Joyce arrived a little late and wandered into the kitchen where my mother was arranging casserole dishes that others had brought.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Having not yet entered fourth grade, I doubt I had ever seen the word "presence" in print, though I might well have seen "presents." Either way, I not only got the joke, but loved the wordplay. It is one of many incidents that reinforced my interest in words, in reading and writing and, therefore, reinforced what has turned out to be a fundamental piece of my identity. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I listened to your plaintive calls for over an hour this morning. I feel your pain. The path to true love is never straight or smooth. I don't know who this Phoebe is, but I truly hope you find her soon so I stand some chance of sleeping past 5:37 a.m.</span><br />
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<i>*Right outside my bedroom window.</i></div>
Masked Momhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08197019009052401812noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12581247.post-18790273329803445202016-04-21T12:00:00.000-04:002016-04-23T10:03:19.439-04:00Unreasonable<span style="font-size: large;">A few years ago, a young acquaintance of mine was having a spectacularly crappy week and I noticed on Facebook that her mother attempted to comfort her by saying, "Everything happens for a reason." </span><span style="font-size: large;"></span><br />
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Masked Momhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08197019009052401812noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12581247.post-16199425374763307982016-04-20T12:00:00.000-04:002016-04-20T14:48:35.459-04:00That Sinking Feeling<span style="font-size: large;">Mr. Lynne was the first man I ever saw in real-life who had a ponytail. My second grade teacher, Ms. Duncan (who was the first "Ms." I ever knew as well, lo those many years ago now, back in the ancient times of 1975), introduced him to our class as her friend Mr. Lynne. He played guitar--folks songs, of course, and had spent a lot of time in Australia, which he talked about at length and much to our fascination. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">After that first afternoon in Ms. Duncan's class, Mr. Lynne occasionally reappeared acting as a substitute for Ms. Duncan. On those days, he would bring souvenirs from his time in Australia. I remember the boomerang and some Aboriginal art. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Growing up as an Army brat, moving around quite a bit, Lyman Run State Park about forty minutes from my grandparents' houses was one of only a few places that was a permanent fixture in my life. I now live a little over an hour from there and it remains a gathering place for my family. It is pretty humble as state parks go--there are certainly parks with more majestic views and more activities to offer, but there is no other place that speaks to my heart the way this place does.</span><br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Most of us: my father, siblings and all our significant others and most <br />of our children (some of them with their own children) and <br />significant others spread out on the grass above the beach, Aug. 2014.</td></tr>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Son-Three and his dog Mira at Losey Vista, on Rock Run Road, Mother's Day 2013, <br />the day he told me I was going to be a grandmother.</td></tr>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Third Nephew and Seventh Niece, on the beach, August 2014, <br />it was chilly that day so we had the place almost to ourselves. <br />Photo courtesy Youngest Sister's Husband & by <br />"courtesy" I mean I totally stole it from his Facebook album.</td></tr>
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Masked Momhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08197019009052401812noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12581247.post-5661309864712910572016-04-18T12:15:00.000-04:002016-04-18T12:15:10.818-04:00Masked Mom's Media Monday: Joyce Carol Oates Live!<span style="font-size: large;">Last fall, when I made one of my frequent stops at the library when I noticed several signs and a bookmark announcing an upcoming library event. It seemed Joyce Carol Oates, the actual Joyce Carol Oates was scheduled to appear at library in our tiny, rural town.</span><div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">At first, I thought I must be misunderstanding something. Perhaps it was a lecture <i>about</i> the works of Joyce Carol Oates, but it seemed virtually impossible to me that Joyce Carol Oates, National Book Award Winner and Bestselling Author, could possibly be appearing here in our town of 6000 people in our rural county nestled up against the Pennsylvania border. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">I don't remember the first Joyce Carol Oates book I read, don't remember when I first heard her name. I know that I already knew who she was by the time <i>We Were The Mulvaneys</i> was chosen by Oprah as a Book Club pick. I may even have read that particular title before it was chosen. I have not read all of her work--she is famously prolific so I may not have even read a <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Joyce_Carol_Oates_bibliography" target="_blank">complete list</a> of her work. There have been a few books of hers that I started and was unable to finish, but the ones of hers that I loved are books I count among my very favorites.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Not only does she write an almost supernatural amount, she writes in an impressive variety of styles and on varied subjects. For as long as I have been reading Oates's books, I have been studying her author photos. They were often the same photo from one book to the next or one of two photos that seemed to have been taken around the same time. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">She looked delicate in these photos, almost waifish, reserved, perhaps aloof. She looked as if she belonged to another century altogether, I thought. Judging from these photos, it was easier for me to imagine her locked in an attic room scribbling away in secrecy than to imagine her as the literary force she actually is.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">On the night of her appearance at the library, the woman who took the stage was easily recognizable as the woman from the photos, though she was noticeably older. When she first began to speak, there were hesitations and pauses and her voice was at first so quiet she was difficult to hear even with the microphone. But as she warmed to her subject, began reading from her work, she appeared to become someone else altogether. She told stories about her family, her home in a small western New York town not unlike ours. She even jokingly compared Donald Trump to a strutting, but mostly useless rooster in her parents' farmyard.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Later, when Daughter-Only and I were in line to have books signed, I watched as she transformed once again. She spoke quietly to the others in line and posed for requested photos with an almost pained expression on her face. Up close, she looked exhausted and overwhelmed. It was nearly 9 p.m. by this point and she had also given a talk earlier in the day at a nearby college. When it was my turn, she asked if I wanted personalized inscriptions in the two books I presented. I declined because I did want to impose. I said, "I'm sure it's been a very long day."</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">She smiled slightly and said that it hadn't been so bad. She said the previous day had been worse, that she had been stranded in some airport or another for nearly five hours. She signed my books and I thanked her and moved on for the ten or fifteen others who were still in line. Then, it seemed, she was to be quietly whisked out of the library, but someone began applauding as she tried to make her exit and the ovation swelled. She lifted her hand in an almost apologetic gesture of farewell.</span><br />
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Masked Momhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08197019009052401812noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12581247.post-26934428087693987982016-04-16T16:06:00.000-04:002016-04-16T16:06:20.165-04:00My Super Delegate<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">
<span style="font-size: large;">You know that youth vote you've been hearing so much about? Well, I'm the proud mama of some of those youthful voters--and one youthful delegate.</span></div>
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Masked Momhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08197019009052401812noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12581247.post-83389925069415542162016-04-15T11:00:00.000-04:002016-04-15T11:00:11.745-04:00I Know That Song By Heart<iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="315" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/hwZNL7QVJjE" width="420"></iframe><br />
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</span> <span style="font-size: large;">When it came time to get married--only a few months after we started dating--we decided that rather than the traditional "Wedding March," I would walk down the aisle to Ben E. King's "Stand By Me." The song was originally recorded and released before either of us was born, but it was enjoying renewed popularity at the time because of its place on the soundtrack of the movie <i>Stand By Me, </i></span><span style="font-size: large;">which had been released the year before.</span><br />
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<br />Masked Momhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08197019009052401812noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12581247.post-35068123065257199302016-04-14T10:45:00.000-04:002016-04-14T10:45:15.924-04:00Inheritance<span style="font-size: large;">My maternal grandmother passed away a little over a year ago. She was 88 years old. She survived her husband and four of her eleven children, and at least two of her thirty-five grandchildren. </span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><br />I found out about my grandmother's death on Facebook--not even in a status, but in a comment one of my cousins made in a goofy thread on a goofy status she had posted earlier in the day. At first, this way of learning the news struck me as vaguely absurd. I realized fairly quickly thereafter that there was almost no other way I could've heard this news. I am not sure what sort of notification system there was, if there was any sort of system at all. Most likely there was no list, but even if there had been a list, I certainly would not have been on it. If it were not for Facebook, I wouldn't have any contact at all with any of my cousins. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I was never really close to my grandmother--when she died, it had been almost 20 years since the last time I'd seen or spoken to her even though she only lived 20 minutes away. I cannot remember ever being in a room alone with her or having a meaningful conversation with her or even observing her in meaningful conversation with anyone else. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">There are reasons for this: my family moved around a lot and sometimes we only saw my mother's family once or twice a year; I was shy to begin with and standoffish later when I grew old enough to pick up on the tensions that often ran high between my mother and her mother, between mom and her siblings. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Then after my mother died, there was a falling out between my siblings and most of the rest of the extended family. It's a long and complicated story that involved property, but only superficially, only symbolically. That was around fifteen years ago now. Some of my siblings have more or less made their peace with the family and are more or less included in things now. I have never even tried finding my way back, largely because I don't feel like I ever belonged.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">When my grandmother died, a few friends read about it in the newspaper and offered their condolences. I felt awkward accepting their sympathies, almost false, like an impostor of some kind. I felt as though I lacked the proper credentials for grief in this situation. How do you accept condolences for the loss of someone who hasn't been in your life for 20 years and who, even before that, was always more of an absence than a presence?</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">For a few days following my grandmother's death, my Facebook feed was full of affectionate recollections of her written by my cousins and even my sister. They remembered stories my grandmother had told them about how she and my grandfather had met. They remembered long car rides with her. They remembered her bacon and eggs. They remembered experiencing all sorts of things with her that I had never experienced.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">With each post, I understood more and more the true nature of my own loss where Grandma Grover was concerned. I lost something, for sure, but whatever it was, I had lost it long ago.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I was born Shawntelle Marie Kalkbrenner. My name had exactly the same number of letters in it as the alphabet. The problems began fairly early on. In kindergarten, I was still writing my name when most of my classmates had finished their papers. In first grade, the last "e" on Shawntelle had somehow been left off the teacher's list so when I spelled my first name "Shawntelle," Miss Gooserunner told me that I was spelling it wrong and circled that "extra" E in red for the first few days of school after which she realized the error of her ways and apologized. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">In second and third grade, in a whole new school, I was "Show-n-Tell." For the most part, no one even tried to pronounce my last name until I hit fourth and fifth grade in another new school, where it was the height of wit for the boys in my class to call me "Kockenweiner" or, alternately, "Kockenburger." </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">We moved again before sixth grade and in seventh, "Show-n-Tell" came up again, this time with a much naughtier connotation. The barely pre-pubescent young man who was so proud of his cleverness was put firmly in his place when I told him that second-graders had called me that. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">In eighth grade art class, the teacher pronounced both my first and last names flawlessly and then asked me if I knew the meaning of my last name. I told him it was "Lime burner" and he argued that it was "cabbage burner," which would've been Krautbrenner, but I was too shy to argue the point much. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">In ninth grade, the computer program cut off the last three letters of my first name so I was "Kalkbrenner, Shawnte" to every teacher I had freshman year until and unless I corrected them. I rarely bothered so I was "Shawntee" or "Shawntay" for as long as I was in that school.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">While I was growing up, we knew only a few other Kalkbrenners--my father's Uncle Bill and his three kids. I still have yet to meet any unrelated Kalkbrenners, though I have found a few on the Internet. We grew up hearing that Kalkbrenner was a pretty common name in Germany, but I don't think I entirely believed it. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Once I started poking around on Ancestry.com, I discovered all sorts of new ways to butcher the name Kalkbrenner. I have found ancestors listed as Klackbrenner, Kalfbrenner, Kalbnermer and Nackbrenner, to name a few. I also discovered that there are, and have been since the mid-1800s, little pockets of Kalkbrenners all over the US. This has been both a blessing and a curse, since it has sometimes made it harder to narrow down the right, say, Gottlieb Kalkbrenner.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Fortunately, most of my Kalkbrenners came straight from Germany to the Pittsburgh, PA area and stayed there. In Germany, though, I hit a dead end because there are, as promised, lots and lots of Kalkbrenners in Germany. Meanwhile, on this side of the Atlantic, the hits keep coming...</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">A couple of years ago, Baby Brother's Wife and I were at work at the halfway house talking about an upcoming family reunion/camp out where we planned to play lots of Killer Kalkbrenner Volleyball. A few days later, one of the residents who had heard us talking about it jokingly tried to invite himself by saying, "Come on! I want to play volleyball with the Colepeppers!"</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><b>K is for Kalkbrenner</b></span>Masked Momhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08197019009052401812noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12581247.post-12284941978264000752016-04-12T10:30:00.000-04:002016-04-12T10:30:25.774-04:00Context-Free Highlight from an Unpublished Masked Mom Original*<span style="font-size: large;">"I've always thought of jealousy as an emotional weed--if left to grow unchecked, it will choke out healthier emotions."</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Sure, I have neglected the blog for months at a time, but I have never seriously considered giving it up entirely. Though I can't always articulate why I can't or won't let it go, I have not let it go. But I have been thinking lately that it may be time to make some changes around here. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">When I first started the blog Son-One, my oldest child, was not-quite seventeen and as I write this post, he is not-quite twenty-eight years old. Despite its name, this blog (and the long-abandoned column it was named for) was never intended to be purely a "mom blog" or even mostly a mom blog. Being neck-deep in mothering as I was at the time, of course, my mom identity was often the one closest to the surface, but I intended from the beginning to use the mom perspective to comment on wide-ranging issues, both locally and nationally. With all my children safely ushered now into young adulthood, I am less actively mothering, though I suppose it's true that I will never stop seeing the world through the lens of motherhood.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">The anonymity, the "masked" part, was partly intended to add a mystery or curiosity factor, but more importantly, was meant to protect my kids from any backlash about opinions or thoughts I might offer that might be considered controversial or offensive in our tiny town. It did not occur to me too much at the time that the anonymity could be read as cowardly, as a shield to hide myself behind, though I have since seen it used that way often enough be others that I have begun to take that into consideration.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">So, now eleven years on, with my <i>youngest</i> child, Daughter-Only, about to turn twenty-one and my immersion in motherhood behind me, I am beginning to give serious consideration to blogging under a new name.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">The logistics of it have so far been too daunting for me to make the leap, though. Would I blog under my own name, but keep this site? And if not, what happens to eleven years worth of posts and archives? I don't want to reduce them to a link on an "About Me" page on a new blog, but if I don't move elsewhere, my blog address will still be "Masked Mom," which will be confusing and maybe even a little misleading. Becoming a new bloggy personality--or the same personality under a new banner or name--turns out to be more complicated than I would've imagined.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">But more difficult than the logistics are the existential questions: Is a Masked Mom always a Masked Mom? Can she outgrow her Momhood? Her Mask? And what--who--does she become instead?</span><br />
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<b style="font-size: x-large;">I is for Identity</b>Masked Momhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08197019009052401812noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12581247.post-16424968572361587162016-04-09T18:48:00.000-04:002016-04-09T18:48:08.983-04:00You Can't Get Entertainment Like That Just Anywhere<span style="font-size: large;">I have mentioned before that I spent a whole lot of time during and shortly after high school, toiling away at Burger King. There was certainly real toil involved in that job, but there were also hilarious moments that have stuck with me ever since.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">For instance, I was once working the front counter and yelled back to the kid on what we called the "specialty board" (where non-burger sandwiches were made), "Hey! Can you make me a Whaler*?" </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Anyway, another time, I was at Burger King, not working, but waiting for my friends to finish closing up for the night. I was sitting on the counter between the drink dispensers as my friend J twisted off the red plastic nozzles and dropped them into a bowl of cleaning solution. Then she presented the bowl to me on the tips of her fingers, the way a caterer would hold a platter of bacon-wrapped shrimp, and said, "Little round plastic thing?" </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">All this anticipation makes it a longer wait than it technically has to be--since I usually don't actually plant anything until late February or early March. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">This year, though, the anticipation was more acute than usual since First Granddaughter, at two-and-a-half, is actually old enough this year to be part of the process. Together, we planted marigolds and pansies in tiny cells in big trays. The marigolds sprouted just three days later and the pansies shortly after that. They joined the tomatoes, peppers and basil that I had planted on my own the weekend before. All my little plant babies are doing spectacularly well, lined up in their tiny cells in their big trays next to the sliding glass door in the dining room, awaiting warmer weather so they can graduate to the great outdoors--it's my greenery nursery. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">When First Granddaughter comes over, she almost always checks on the plants without any prompting from me. On Wednesday night, she was gently running her hands across the top of the plants--barely touching them. Like an air kiss except it was air plant patting. Then she took an interest in a particular pepper plant and began sort of pinching a leaf between her fingers. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I said, "Honey, you have to be careful with the plants. Don't hurt their leaves; they really need their leaves."</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">She loosened her grip on the pepper plant and paused to consider this information. Then, with her other hand, she pointed out the window at the bare trees in the backyard. She said, "Plants need leaves. My put these leaves on the plants outside."</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">She then grabbed the pepper leaf again. I disengaged her fingers and picked her up to explain how the trees had their own baby leaves, which would be getting bigger soon. Fortunately, there is a tree right next to the back deck and I was able to show her the itty-bitty just opening-buds. It was enough to convince her that she did not need to sacrifice the indoor plants in order for the outdoor plants to get their much-needed leaves.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><b>G is for Garden</b></span>Masked Momhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08197019009052401812noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12581247.post-81761823575535912212016-04-07T10:30:00.000-04:002016-04-07T10:30:00.815-04:00Wii Have the Power...to Utterly Humiliate Ourselves<span style="font-size: large;">With a few notable <a href="http://maskedmom.blogspot.com/2012/11/ways-i-am-not-grown-up-thirteenth-in.html" target="_blank">exceptions</a>, I've never really been much of a video game player. The first time I ever saw a <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wii" target="_blank">Wii</a> game system, I knew next to nothing about the way the system worked.</span><div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Before I could stop myself, I exclaimed, "Hey, how come that little Wii dude has a Seventies porn star mustache?" </span></div>
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Masked Momhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08197019009052401812noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12581247.post-54844319988502833472016-04-06T10:30:00.000-04:002016-04-06T10:30:22.350-04:00Fooling (With) Mother Nature*<span style="font-size: large;">When I was in third grade, my teacher, Mrs. Shank, kept a hermit crab in a small fishbowl on the window ledge. The bowl had a bunch of extra shells in it and the hermit crab was shy so it wasn't until about six weeks into the school year that anyone noticed there was actually a living creature in the bowl. There may have been some initial squealing from some of the kids sitting closest to the window when the hermit crab showed himself for the first time and began scrabbling among stones and shells in his glass home.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">It was the first time most of us had seen or even heard of a hermit crab. We found the thing fascinating and when she told us that we would each be assigned to take it home for a weekend, there was a stampede of eager volunteers pushing to be the first to write their name on the list. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Mrs. Shank introduced us to another wonder of the natural world--a plant that shrunk from the slightest touch, its leaves folding up tightly when brushed or bumped. I've never forgotten the plant, though if I ever knew its name, I've long since forgotten that. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">In fact, I've always wondered what that plant was called and tried over the years to find it, with no success until accidentally, when I was barely paying attention at all, I was flipping through one of those catalogs for a school fundraiser and I stumbled over a kit to grow something called a "sensitive plant." </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">From what I've read since my kit arrived, scientists are not completely sure what advantages this sensitivity gives the plant but speculate that the rapid movement of the plant may startle away animals, including insects, looking to make a meal of it.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">The way the plant shrinks at a touch--or even a too-rough accidental bump of its plastic pot--has inspired a few discussions around our house about whether the plant can "feel" in any recognizable sense of the word, or worse yet, "think." I'm not sure where I stand on that, but the possibility does make me feel a little bad about how much I enjoy poking the little bugger.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span>Masked Momhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08197019009052401812noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12581247.post-79812413789354385212016-04-05T10:15:00.000-04:002016-04-05T10:15:07.810-04:00The Icing on the Cake<span style="font-size: large;">Baby Brother and his family came over on Friday night for game night. When they walked in the door, I was just finishing up frosting some chocolate cupcakes, which were planned for a bake sale to benefit a local family. </span><div>
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Masked Momhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08197019009052401812noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12581247.post-15156976529394661722016-04-04T09:30:00.000-04:002016-04-04T09:30:11.922-04:00Ways I Am Not A Grown-Up, The Twenty-First In A Potentially Infinite Series<span style="font-size: large;">I don't drink coffee. I never have, not one single cup. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Sometimes when someone new in my life hears that I don't drink coffee, they are so shocked that an adult person doesn't drink coffee that they will ask me why I don't drink coffee.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I am never really sure how to answer that question. I just never picked up the habit. I had a sip of coffee once, by accident, when I was about eight. It was awful and not merely because I was expecting hot cocoa. Then I worked at Burger King through most of high school, most of that time in drive-thru where the big coffee pots ran night and day so the very smell of coffee is associated with toiling away my adolescence surrounded by other angsty and miserable teens. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I have awkwardly defended my position on coffee more than a few times. Once, I even defended it in writing. I was reading Natalie Goldberg's <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Old-Friend-Far-Away-Practice/dp/1416535039/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1459651125&sr=1-1&keywords=old+friend+from+far+away" target="_blank"><i>Old Friend from Far Away: The Practice of Writing Memoir</i><i style="font-weight: bold;"> </i></a>and came across the following writing prompt: </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">It apparently never occurred to Natalie Goldberg, who is one of my heroes on the planet in so many other ways, that a grown-up human being might have never been a coffee drinker. So, therefore, if I don't drink coffee, I am clearly not a member in good standing of the grown-up club. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><b><br /></b></span>Masked Momhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08197019009052401812noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12581247.post-1460783550756500932016-04-02T10:18:00.001-04:002016-04-02T10:18:47.784-04:00Oblivious<span style="font-size: large;">One morning about a month ago, my boss came into my office first thing for some intense conversation mostly about residents at the halfway house, but also a little about our personal lives. She was in and out of my office numerous times during the first forty-five minutes of the day. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">During all that time, I never noticed that her hair had changed dramatically from the day before. The style wasn't much different, just trimmed, I think, but the color had gone from an ash blonde shade to something in the burgundy family. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Oh, jeez. I apologized to my boss and she waved it off. No big deal. And then, in the next half hour or so, two additional coworkers complimented her hair in gushing tones. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I launched into a self-deprecating speech about how blind I am and how I really never even noticed and that I just <i>don't</i> notice things like hair and clothes because, I guess, I'm not normal--at least not a normal <i>woman. </i>Even my boss said, "You're like a guy in that way." </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Here's the truth: days go by without me making sustained eye contact with myself in the mirror. I can barely be relied upon to be a steward of my own appearance, to make myself something approaching presentable before leaving the house, let alone notice someone else's cute cut or color or adorable new sweater.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">At the office that day, we all laughed it off because what else was there to do? But among women and girls, that noticing, those compliments are currency and I'm flat broke.</span><br />
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