Monday, March 19, 2012

Masked Mom's Media Monday: Apples And Oranges: My Brother And Me, Lost And Found

Marie Brenner is an investigative reporter with a distant and difficult relationship with her only sibling when he is diagnosed with cancer. He calls his sister and asks her to put her connections and investigative skills to work finding a cure for a cancer he has been told is incurable. She makes efforts to do so and in the process, turns her investigative curiosity on the state of her relationship with her brother and the history of sibling rivalries within their extended family as well. In Apples & Oranges: My Brother and Me, Lost and Found, Brenner shares that journey.

Determined to radically improve--or at least to better understand--her relationship with her brother, she puts much of the rest of her life on hold and moves from her home in New York City to be near her brother on his apple farms in Washington State and at his main home in Texas. 

Brenner unflinchingly shares even the unflattering things she discovers about herself, about her brother, about her family's history. While doing so, she often jumps back and forth in time in a way that is occasionally jarring. Ultimately, though, the flashing forward and back came to seem an organic part of the storytelling process--putting us that much more inside her head and heart. It is as though she gives us specific moments not in the chronological order in which they occurred, but in the order in which their deeper meaning became clear to her.

Throughout the book, Brenner pulls no punches in relaying her brother's verbal attacks and anger at her and the world, but she is also open about what she sees as her own contribution to the distance between them. At one point, Brenner's insatiable desire to figure this sibling thing out leads her to meet with a psychiatrist and author who has some interest in the dynamics of sibling relationships and, of course, she also reads extensively on the subject. Summing up all her research she writes this passage, which will likely stay with me for a long time:
In other words, the Bermuda triangle that can never be explained but allows you to experience colleagues and partners with something approaching the mind-set you had with your siblings. Did you look to them as mentors, enemies, confidants, or competitors? Or a combination of all these elements depending on the day? 
Now that I understood it, that it was there, underneath, like a cop directing traffic, it would take every shred of discipline to look for the common ground, the links that attached us to the world rather than the thing that separated us. And that was a decision, like choosing chocolate over strawberry, that was  within me to make.
I failed at this much of the time.

The last line was like a punch in the gut, made all the more poignant by Brenner's unadorned prose.

Had she wanted to produce just another sentimental memorial to a lost sibling,* she certainly had the material to do so, but instead, she remains true to herself, to their relationship, and to that uncrossable and unfathomable space that lies between us and those we wish to be closest to.

Masked Mom's One-Word Review: Powerful.

*Given that Brenner reveals her brother's death within the first few paragraphs of the book's preface, I did not feel as though I was giving too much away here.

13 comments:

  1. I can't imagine my life without the close ties with my siblings - now and when we were growing up. I know I am fortunate in this respect. Though other things might haunt me, my bothers and my lone sister never fail to make me feel loved.

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    1. I really admire your relationship with your siblings. I think it's great that you all have each other.

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  2. Where would I be without my sistah? I like stories about siblings. Powerful, indeed.

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    1. You guys are really lucky to have one another--and I'm sure it's not only luck, but a real determination to stay close out in the big, scary adult world. ;)

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  3. Oh boy, siblings. That has been a complicated issue in my life. Expectation versus reality has been where my struggle begins and never ends.

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    1. Expectation versus reality is one of my pet themes. In the case of sibling relationships in particular, I've often thought that it is a relationship that many of us expect so much from, but give so little to--especially in adulthood. If that makes any sense?

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  4. Another book for my list. I like the idea of "unadorned prose" in the context of discussing siblings. I was kind of afraid that book would be all treacly and unrealistic. Glad to know it's not. Thanks for another amazing review, Masked Mom!

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    1. I was sort of afraid of the same thing and was pleasantly surprised (obviously). She paints their relationship as the thorny and imperfect thing it apparently was. I hope if you get a chance to read it, you'll let me know what you thought.

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  5. Interesting. Thanks for the recommendation!

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    1. You're welcome, Leanne. If you ever do read it, I hope you'll let me know what you thought.

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  6. When I think of being a little old lady, I've always envisioned my sisters next to me. My husband asks where he is in this picture, and I shrug. I'm really not sure. Maybe I dreamed this gray-haired sister thing long before I met him.

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    1. My sister who lives closest to me used to joke that we were going to end up being crazy cat ladies together. No calculation was made for Hubby--even though we had been married 10 years or so by that point. ;)

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