Thursday, January 19, 2012

Of Grand Mothers and Mediocre Metaphors

My Nan, with my father around 1951. You can't tell from looking at her, but she had a serious aversion to labeling and dating photographs, which I believe she inherited from her own mother and as a consequence, I have inherited several generations worth of unlabeled, undated photos, which I store in a plastic tote labeled "Anonymous Ancestors From An Unknown Time."

My Nan would've been 90 today. She was my paternal grandmother, whom we called "Nanny" growing up. Her version of how she got that name, rather than the more conventional "Grandma," was that as a toddler, I couldn't pronounce "Grandma" and said "Nana" instead. My mother's version was that my grandmother was too vain to approve being called "Grandma," so insisted on a name with fewer age-related associations. There is no end to the stories in which my mother's version differed dramatically from her mother-in-law's version, which is a pretty standard phenomenon, I guess.

In honor of the anniversary of her birth, a re-run of one of my stories of my grandmother:

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When I was growing up, spending time with my paternal grandparents, Pap had a habit of sitting in a chair in the corner of the kitchen beside the woodstove, sometimes reading, sometimes just sitting there over his ridiculously strong cup of tea, looking curmudgeonly--he had more hair and fewer teeth but otherwise resembled Nebbercracker from the movie Monster House in some significant ways. I know Nebbercracker was supposed to be a scary bad guy, especially at the beginning, but I found myself a little nostalgic and missing Pap even in the opening scenes of the movie.

Anyway, there he sat, in the chair in the corner of the kitchen and Nan was often puttering around the house or watching TV in the living room. The house was a converted hunting cabin and had only three rooms so when he yelled for her, in his phlegmy, grunty way (emphysema), she wouldn't have any problem hearing him.

"Em," he would yell, and then pause for a response, which wouldn't come, so he'd yell again.

"Em!"

"Em!"

"Emma!"

Meanwhile, my grandmother was wherever she was smirking and rolling her eyes, knowing what was coming, and not answering because of it.

"Em!"

"Em!"

"Emma!"


This would sometimes go on for three or four rounds before finally, finally Nan would cave and say, "What?!" or sometimes (if this was, say, the third or fourth time that day that Pap had gotten into this mood), "What, you crazy old son-of-a-bitch?!"


And always, always, always, Pap would say, "Kiss my dupa*!" He was a sixty-something-year-old man with a six-year-old's mischievous glint in his eye. Sometimes--even if it was the fourth or fifth time that day he'd pulled his clever little trick--he would laugh so hard a coughing fit would ensue.


I've been thinking about this a lot lately--not merely because it's the kind of funny-in-a-warped way story that is so typical of my grandparents--but because in my own funny-in-a-warped way brain, it's become a metaphor for my entire life.

There are some things about myself and my life that I would really like to change. I would like to be more motivated and energetic and I understand that the main way to get moving is to actually move. I want to spend less energy procrastinating and more energy actually accomplishing. I lecture myself pretty much perpetually. The last ten minutes before I fall asleep, many of my thoughts begin with "First thing tomorrow, I will..." and yet day after day after month after year, not much changes.


So there is the lecturing side of myself--the well-intentioned, you-can-do-more-better-faster self but then there is the other side, sitting in the corner, clamoring for attention. ("Em!" "Em!" "Emma!") And that more-better-faster person tries nobly to resist the pull of the non-productive, unhealthy, but oh-so-deeply-ingrained creature of slothful habits, but finally, finally, always, always she gives in and shouts, "What, you crazy old son-of-a-bitch?!"

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A few links (with previews) to other stories featuring my grandmother:

Weirdness: "My Nan was Catholic and a kleptomaniac, among many other things, not that those two things--Catholicism and kleptomania--are directly related, of course."

Don't Judge a Post By Its Title (Or Lack Thereof): "...have me thinking about what other genetic time bombs my grandmother has left behind. Will I soon start eating kidney beans out of the can while watching People's Court and Entertainment Tonight? Will I shave my legs with a dry razor while sitting on a lawn chair in the front yard?"

"Oh, how I hate to get up in the morning...": "I sometimes think parenting is just an elaborate payback for all the grief we caused the adults in our lives when we were kids...Oh, Nan, wherever you are, they're getting back at me now."


*Growing up, I knew "dupa" was "ass" and just assumed it was German, given my grandfather's heritage. But, turns out, if it is German it is regional slang borrowed from one of several Eastern European neighbors

14 comments:

  1. I thought "dupa" was going to be a romantic nick-name...I like it's true meaning better!

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    1. Under the right circumstances, it could be construed as kinda romantic. ;)

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  2. I want to be your Pap when I grow up. Also, this hits me in the gizzard. So many "Tomorrow I will"s piling up.

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  3. Googling "dupa" shows the word to be Polish. I used to know an old guy who said "Kiss my petuchi," which, when googled, proves to be a snail. Go figure. I love your father's hair style in that priceless, undated and unlabeled photograph.

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  4. 'I want to spend less energy procrastinating and more energy actually accomplishing.' I'm making this my mantra!

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    1. Listen, I originally wrote this in mid-2010, and I'm still trying to make it my mantra. :)

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  5. I love that S. Stauss's ambition is to be an old man...this keeps coming up for her- highly amusing! My husband can't wait to be an old man so that he can get away with saying whatever he wants. Looking forward to reading more stories of your Nan

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    1. That really does seem to be an ongoing thing for her. :)

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  6. Ha ha ha ha ha!! I LOVE this. "Em..." resonates so strongly with my because my grandpa's name was Frank and he would hollar for "Em" (Emma Lee) my grandmother when we were in their house. Yes!\

    ~ Red Dirt Kelly
    http://www.reddirtchronicles.com/

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    1. I guess it's probably just from hearing it so much at a young age, but I think this stuff is hard-wired into me. ;)

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  7. HA! I'm with cdnkaro on loving S. Stauss's ambition to be an old man.

    Your Nan and Pap sound like quite a pair!

    Also, dry razor?! OUCH! (I had to click through and read the whole story.)

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    1. I know! And it wasn't even one of those new fancy razors with built-in lotion or anything. It was a million years old and you took a screw off the top to put a new razor blade in it. I never saw her cut herself with it though.

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  8. Hysterical yet again! Mark likes the hairstyle because it reminds him of photos of himself probably!
    and I though Pap was going to demand that Em DO something - as in, "get me my tea" or "get me a cigar" or "when's lunch?" I loved that what actually appeared to be going on was good old fashioned affection.
    And one more thing: I don't EVER want to be called Grandma either. Sounds so frumpy and old. I don't have the greatest associations with the word .... I suspect Meg the daughter will come up with a variation if and when the need ever arises - I think she already has as a matter of fact.

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    1. Growing up, I was the only one of my friends who had a Nanny/Nan, but I know lots of people who use variants now. Including one whose grandmother's name is Fran so she's Franma. There are definitely options. ;)

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